December 29 by The Running Son
Daily digest for December 29, 2013
Two poles: Love and fear. Liberty and paralysis. Hope and despair.
When I began in WordPress in February 2013, I named my blog “The RunningFather” blog, after the parable of the Prodigal Son. Adoption, sexual abuse… something embedded the need deep within me to return to the troubled family that raised me and reconcile. Find redemption.
Union and separation. Acceptance and rejection. Risk, and pain abatement. In April, I found love, and a new purpose, and I moved home in August that I might reconcile with the only family I have.
Indignation and bitterness. Radiating ideals, meeting a tattered reality beneath receding flood waters. I was escorted from my parents house in September and asked not to return. My father’s cancer has since returned.
I decided to write Daily Digests this holiday to excise this despair and paralyzing behavior I have slipped into. Like others on WP, I live in a remote area, and blogging is my only social outlet. Blogging has again become necessary and essential for my emotional health.
There are bloggers who have reached out to me, and I am eternally grateful for them. However, my life has been one long call for “help”, but all the helpers are gone now. I cannot abide my own helplessness, and the only thing I know to do is attempt to write with boldness, and without self-pity. God help me.
.namaste. -• ö.tH(ink)Mÿstiç •- .namaste.